In actual fact, I do not feel too differently from you.
I want to cry as well,
at the impending loss of a person
whom you were a part of.
Whom I feel close to but hardly know,
whom I dreamt of holding my hand.
But that's not what I am supposed to do.
I will be leaving you to your matters,
while I take into my own hands, our matters.
It's not that I do not want to make you smile,
it's certainly not because I don't care.
I just feel like both of us should,
like for any other times,
make our way through with focus & comprehension,
without any distractions.
So as to gain meaning, you say.