On HOT!'s impending release:

I am presenting my past works to mark the end of school!

too much things in the world is overrated.

the winner is love and continuity editing.

On birthday and post birthday:

29-3

以爲簡簡單單地過，

但是好友 (Ke Xin, Weyman & Jovan) 晚上買了綠茶，炸雞套餐和巨無霸點火機

然後就到的草埔屋頂玩吉他。

30-3

然後隔天，我的好同學 (Qidi, who also birthdayed 3 days before) 買了小片蛋糕，

唱歌給我聼。

而且晚上，軍隊摯友 (my bro Michael) 還特地跑下來，

送我一個超大蛋糕和祝福。

03-4

Rojak is dinner/supper during first night of Eileen's shoot.

04-4

Qidi is sitting on top of the table to absorb light (吃光) on Eileen's set.

一整個星期在學校趕功課。能收到大家的祝福，真的是謝謝。

Thank you.

Reaching a new low:

On Working Title: At Last, The Songs / 插曲

我想到了一個新的故事題材。

關於的是我的從前和可能實現的未來。

感人嗎？應該會。

這會是一個簡單順序的故事。

可是一切的一切是不可能簡單順序的。

因為人是故事的主角。

人是很複雜的生物。

而面臨此複雜心態時，

往往都只懂得退步， 不面對。

有一幕，男主角看著他心愛的人熟睡。

如果他們不相愛，

那我就會讓男主角睡后永遠不醒來。

因為愛而不被愛是比死來得更悲哀。

不幸的，他每天都會被比真實還真實

的夢驚醒。

最後男主角會以為他失去了一切，

其實相反地，一切都再次歸於他。

他在戲裡當然是永遠不會知道。

這就是無知輿人生交錯的美麗，

也是抓空希望的身亡墜落。

On Knowing Oneself:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you, realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken. (Personality Test Result)

duh.

心篇。第二。

The Hours drag on but

其實我想要的很簡單。

也只不過是人人都有，

而不多顧慮的一些生活點滴。

但是掙扎是過程，

門票我可付不起，

餘力的苦澀，我喝不下。

就放棄吧。

我就靜坐，握著心臟，

看他停息，腐爛，變坏。

多吸一口氣也只不過是

毒死自己。

停頓的是一個接一個的鐘頭，

飛奔的是一月接一月的什麽。

On Ke Xin:

Honestly, you need a new phone.

有什麽比他們愛我？

On Saywei + Carlene's Engagement:

原來找到依靠的感覺是幸福，

而幸福交錯的眼神

就是愛。

On Advanced Drawing and/or Life:

Its all about erasing the blacks to reveal the light.

Something about today is strangely

liberating.

shomei tomatsu

HOT! Shoot at NIE Pool:

1. Cher Kun

2. Desmond

3. Guorong

4. Jeannie

5. Yu Xian

6. Wyna

7. Ke Xin (Small)

8. AMIN

Thank you all so much!

Day and Night:

So far, all I have been trying to do is to

stop myself from recovering

from the state I got myself into.

This Hour:

1. I wanted to scan people's faces as a photo series

2. Man in a Snow Globe just screened today at The Singapore Short Film Awards (Not In Competition). It is screening again coming Monday for First Takes (Feb), alongside 4 other films of which 3, are friends'. It is more significant to me that, this said film is my first PG film. Remarkable for a fucked-up like me.

3. Really keen on the Art Therapy at SGH. But what do I have to offer?

心篇。 第一。

看得懂嗎？這塵埃堆疊呼應的層次。

美感是肉眼的錯覺。

大小是距離的交代。

放棄堅持，可能有如同畫一般，

是一起美麗的意外。

想要的一橫，下筆的一橫，

兩者之間具有渺小的偏差，

最終的畫卻默默背負著

龐大，無盡的傷害。

表面上看起來則別來無恙。

On HOT!:

1. Anderson

2. People who believes in me

In retrospect, what the fuck am I trying to do?

From the final day of Three Days Grace set:

I saw the sundown literally.

How the hues of the sunlight changes rapidly from orange to pinkish

and then going darker and darker. It was quite breathtaking to see

this in Singapore.

While I stood in awe, taking in the natural phenomenon of the painterly sky,

it suddenly struck me that I should take a picture.

I wanted to share the beauty of this sight with someone, anyone.

But obviously I was too late in doing so.

I am always too late.

I took this picture sometime in Oct or Nov 09.

This picture shows branches that is being raised up towards the sun

being fed and held proudly by the main trunk that is perpetually supporting all these branches.

The branches grow rich and glorious.

I, too, wanna dedicate this picture to Michael's Dad and my Grandma.

After 2009 ended, I noticed for the first time.

My cactus grew.